think straight or think bent

there's a very thin line separating sanity and insanity..

either one or the other can tell if someone thinks straight or not..

for an individual who smiles momentarily and laughs out loud, who knows where the joy can be coming? the lightness maybe of genuine happiness, a normal feeling of every person..while it could also be disillusionment, a fluctuating euphoric excitement that goes by a snap..

for somebody who cries silently and frowns in grief, there can always be two sides..the emptiness might have come from clinical depression, diagnosed to be critical in a mental state..but on the other hand, it could've just been natural sadness, the teary outlet of the heavy-hearted..

and for the one who exhibits no emotion at all, maybe the neutrality is simply brought by the weather..a sudden change of mood that compels no human reaction at all..or worst, it could be catatonia, the restless, schizophrenic attitude opposite to sensitive exhaustion..

either of which, by any chance for every case, the contrast is further lost..

and so, there's this very huge probability that the person you're talking to right now is the plain, unconscious, disturbed individual, going in a trance from being delusional, to catatonic, and then to getting depressed..while you still mistake him to be the normal, conversational person he is..

meantime, the one locked up inside the quarters continues to act ill, 'cause although sanity can be proven, it creeps to know that the more a patient insists to be sane, as he really is, the more he looks insane in the eyes of the labeling many..

it's funny to think that we sane people act crazy sometimes just to escape reality for awhile..and at some point, this attitude of letting loose becomes a leeway for our own psychiatric disorders to be disguised as intentional misbehavings..

this is why it's too early and too risky to judge one by mere looks in an isolated instance..

i don't even know who's writing this blog.. :)